🌾 When the Grass is Dry and the Home is Messy - By MS | Bhuangan Blog

 🌾 A Love Letter to the Ones Who Are Barely Holding On -  By MS | Bhuangan Blog 

The garden is brown.
The house is quiet, except for the clutter.
The sink is full.
The mirror has smudges.
And your soul? She’s trying. So hard.

But no one sees that part.

🌱 This Is Not Laziness. This Is Survival.

There are times in life when the dishes pile up not because you’re careless,
but because you’re in survival mode.

Maybe you’re grieving.
Maybe you're burned out.
Maybe you’re walking on eggshells because someone you live with is cruel.
Or maybe… you’re just exhausted from being strong for everyone else.

This is not a sign of failure.
It’s a sign you’ve been carrying too much — for too long.

🌼 “People Are Not Good or Bad. They Are Human.”

My grandmother once told me:

“No one is born good or bad. People are human. It’s the situation that makes them one or the other.”

But what if the person hurting you knows what they’re doing?

That’s the part no one talks about.
When someone’s words slice through you daily…
When they twist the truth and leave you wondering if you are the problem…

Even then — even in that pain — you are still sacred.
Still worthy.
Still allowed to say:

“This mess is not my shame. It’s my proof that I’m still here.”

🪔 What the Dry Grass Is Whispering

Not all dry lawns come from drought.
Some come from energy vampires who leave nothing for you.
Some come from the exhaustion of performing okay-ness for the world.

But the grass doesn’t judge you.
It waits.

“Water me when you can,” it says.
“I’ll be here when you’re ready.”

🧘🏽‍♀️ So What Can You Do?

Don’t force a transformation.

Instead, try:

• 💧 Watering one plant — not to fix the yard, but to remind your hands they still hold life.
• 🧹 Cleaning one surface — not to please anyone, but to reclaim a corner of peace.
• ✍🏽 Writing down the names of the people who drain you — and letting the page hold your truth.
• 🌞 Opening the window and facing east — even if you don’t feel like praying, just breathe.

You’re not a broken thing.
You are a becoming thing.

🌸 And If You’re Being Hurt by Someone…

No, it’s not your karma to suffer endlessly.
Even if this person came into your life to play a role in your soul’s growth —

It is not your job to shrink just to keep the peace.

You don’t need to fix them.
You don’t need to stay silent.
You just need to stay gentle with yourself.

That’s the real spiritual practice.

🌷 Final Words from Bhuangan:

“Not every mess needs to be cleaned.
Some of them just need to be understood.”

And not every relationship needs to be healed.
Some of them need to be outgrown.

If your grass is dry and your house is heavy — know this:
You are not the mess. You are the one still blooming through it.